Day 13-A letter to someone I think about a lot

This one is going to be a little difficult. This one is to my grandma Krauss. She passed away on Aug 4, 2005 and I miss her so much every single day! Here is the last photo I have with her and I can tell you that she is so much a part of my soul!!!

Gram,

I think about you a lot lately. Whenever I'm in the kitchen I see you standing there cooking and the warmth you brought to this house. I can't believe it will be 6 years since you where taken home to be with Grandpa. So many times I replay the conversations we had, about how you missed grandpa and about how you hated being alone. I never really understood that much until recently when I started spending a lot of time away from Rashaan.

I think about the day that dad told me you died. I had just gotten home from the hospital with the twins. Due to the complications I didn't come to see you laid to rest and I regret that decision ever single day of my life. I often find myself crying because I didn't say goodbye. I didn't get to tell you one last time how much I loved you...so that is part of what this letter is for.

Not a single day goes by that I don't hear your voice talking to me...telling me how much you and grandpa love me. How proud of me you are. I remember when I saw you at the wedding, seeing you as I walked in made me cry. I cried because I knew you where so proud of me. I remember how you beamed with pride at seeing me, become a family of my own.

So many times I have looked at this picture of us. It was unfortunately the last time I got to see you. You never got to hold you're great grandkids, life kept me too busy and I regret not getting there to see you and let you see them. I know you are holding them now and I know that you are with me every single day but I honestly wish that for just one minute I could hug you again!!!

Until our paths cross again though, pictures and memories are what I have to get me through. My head is full of moments of you and grandpa and I hope as my years progress and my life moves on that those memories will stay with me forever.

Since this is now my chance to say goodbye I will end with I love you and I am so proud to be your grandaughter. You taught me more about love than anyone I know and I am a better person because of you. You are always in my heart and always in my soul!!!

Until we meet again,

Beth